B.E
I often repeat in my head that I must give humans little thought. I am too sensitive to specific subjects, and humans are why the world is so damaged. I couldn't just sit back and watch like most people do. I felt the good, the bad, and the ugly in all. This is how I've felt since I was very young, and I was born with an intense feeling of sensing things. While born with this feeling, I learned to deal with the world over time. It wasn't easy, and at times, it still is.
It's hard to watch the world in such bad shape. I made many decisions as an adult, one of which was not to have children. It felt empowering to make these decisions without needing consent from family and close friends. After all, I thought they wouldn't understand anyway. Why to bring a child into this world?
With time, I realized that most of our population causes the world to be as it is. This large percentage is the sorrow of the world. We come into this world bare and raw, filled with love, desire, and hope, but in between; they become conditioned and leave this world damaged.
I tried the norm, but it wasn't for me. I'm not like most people. I'm different. And that's okay. I wrote blogs about it and used social media to connect with others who understood. I removed those who hurt me and injured others. I kept looking for people like me but needed help finding them. I even tried to create a community, but most people who showed up were ordinary.
I want to finish a project I started in 2012. It's a series that shows humans' bare vulnerability and rawness. I want my audience to feel and see the fragile beings against the perils of our society. Many things have changed since I started shooting this project nearly eight years ago. I became vegan, and my battles were more imminent. So this book is about more than just our partners and our relationship with the world and each other.
Why do humans give each other a hard time? Why do we lie and live inauthentically? I often wonder about these things. Love, loyalty, and happiness seem like myths sometimes. But I always try to choose love, even when bad things happen. In hindsight, they are often the best things ever happening to us.
Life is short, and it goes fast. We must learn to love ourselves first, in all our glory and imperfections. If we cannot love ourselves, we can't fully open to our ability to love others or our potential to create. Evolution and all hopes for a better world rest in the fearlessness and open-hearted vision of people who embrace life.
